Ever After

Ever After

Pan, old ugly friend

screams "You're alive!"

Respond?

Retreat into familiar fairytales.

Witch  Waif  Warrior

Who emerges from the

cold dark water?

Disgusting wounds ignite

in the presence 

Making every effort to appear

normal, sincere

(not veering on the edge)

(not dangerously explosive)

"Don't mistake my weakness 

for that loathsome foe

we daren't name."

Shame 

overwhelming homeostasis

Crawling, mewling on unswept floor

Unable to gain equilibrium enough

to walk away

Lock the door; hide behind barricades

made from

blood guts gore

human remains after they have

vermified, defiled

My core cries

"One sweet kiss.  A taste,

sense memory

stasis of desire."

I leap whole

into eternal fire

beyond pain; burning sensation

Pan smiles