I want to be adored beyond embarrassment
I want to be she who can do no wrong, because beloved
To be always gifted accurate reflective critique
as superlative reviews, with just a tweak suggested
here and there.
I want to fall securely into open arms and heart
expecting only me
I want each blessed day to start
gazing into shining eye that see so deeply,
so wisely, my precious wondrous being
I want what I have never had from lovers,
brothers, Mom or Dad
What I have taught myself severely
I can never have
Too bad. So sad. Can't let fantasy
keep me from my daily dance with debt.
Only in dreams free to give and receive
with that dream mate
never to be met.